Day 5 : I’m an idoit

Emo moment when you found out something very hurtful, and triple times hurtful when u discovered that actually your close friends around you all knew about it and you were the last to know; making you look like an idoit.

Hurt x 3

Starting to hide yourself in a different crowd that have no connection to your past. Feeling less embarrassed like that. Refused to go gatherings anyhow because you have no face to face all your close friends. Feeling insecure dont know actually how many of them knew about it and how they discuss behind. Unexpectedly, more than you have expected.

Heart died. Just.Like.That

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6 Comments on Day 5 : I’m an idoit

  1. zErOiCe
    April 20, 2012 at 6:56 pm (6 years ago)

    just put it into experience.. be happy always 🙂

  2. Ming
    April 21, 2012 at 6:32 pm (6 years ago)

    One thing I learnt as I grow up is that, you can’t control what people think about you. But you have a CHOICE:
    1) to let their words paralyze you or
    2) you live your life and take charge of it.
    Every body needs time to heal but make sure you take the shortest time to recover. Life is too short to worry about what ppl think about you. Live it fully. 🙂

  3. ~YienYien~
    April 23, 2012 at 12:28 am (6 years ago)

    It certainly neeed a hell lot time to accept and heal. Because… we used to be a group of very close friends. And it is quite hard for me, maybe for now, to accept the fact that this thing actually happened like last year and everyone just do not plan to let me know.

    In the other way, it feels like betrayal. And i feel like i m being fooled around. Because the ppl involved can act like nth happened. it certainly hurt a lot.

    And i m sure you might know about it too. *huhuhuhu*

    Have to get thru nah.. but it certainly need time. it felt like a super big stone on top.

  4. Tim
    April 26, 2012 at 12:05 pm (6 years ago)

    I know how u feel. People who are your real friends would let you know something if it affects you. If they hide it from you, at worse, it is because they are not enough as friends to care enough to let you know because of course they would know that it would be something you would to know. At best, they may not have told you because they dunno how to tell you. But, the latter is a lame excuse. Real friends will find some way of telling never mind how difficult it is to themselves (yes, is it more important the problem for themselves in working out how to tell you, or is the problem more of how you would feel when you eventually find out without their help?). Anyhow, I hope that the problem was not too embarassing to you. We all do silly things at some stage in our lives. Hopefully you will be able to slowly, with time not let it affect you. In a few weeks you will feel differently about it and able to face people you know without cringing. I know … I have been through it. So chin up. I’m just a follower of your blog who comes in every few months to see what you are doing. Have followed you for some years. Take care 🙂

  5. annna
    May 1, 2012 at 1:35 am (6 years ago)

    *huggles* I will hufff and pufff and blow the bad guys away!!!

  6. ~YienYien~
    May 2, 2012 at 1:01 pm (6 years ago)

    huhuhuhuhu!! thankiuk all!

    I hope i will get over soon <3


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