Day 2 of September

I think i need a hair cut. My bangs is very annoying. Thought of going for a hair cut with lao mao this afternoon but ended up.. i decided to wait for like.. maybe a week or two because am planning to get a proper hair cut. Not only to trim my bangs as planned earlier. hohoho!

Anyway.. i think my blog kinda like slowly been replaced by my facebook di.. As much as i love to blog.. sometimes you just don see the comfort being stalked by some people. Or even like if i said something extreme.. friends or whoever which are concerned.. they will keep advising not to state that on the blog and bla bla bla..

When i was in my uni life, people often do ask me, what is the good thing about blogging. First comes in my mind was.. you can express your feeling in your blog.. you can write whatever you feel like in your blog because its your blog.

Now.. as more things are coming.. i find it really uncomfortable to write any of my personal things or feelings here. Why? First, normally when u write your personal stuff in your blog.. its either you are touched by some incidents or you are just too sad to share to someone else but to write. Well, the thing is.. people will start asking. Come on la, i mean.. sometimes, they just want to express it in the blog, doesnt mean that they need your advice on that particular stuff.

I stop sharing my personal things in my blog. Now, i concentrate food in my blog. But somehow, people will just misunderstood like.. oh my.. you are so rich you eat a lot of good food. The truth is.. most of the food blog is accumulated.. means.. i only go once in a while.. not everyday. Secondly, it might be a function or an event. AHHH! why am i explaining! i should care less.

Blogging but is not able to blog like the way you want. AHH! no point. Everytime before i blog, i will have to consider who will be reading this.. what will they think… will i get nag later? AHH! forget about it.. just don blog. Seee.. that is why sometimes i really feel like.. there is no point to blog. *haih*

Maybe i should just share some meaningful things once in a while then.

Not just blog. Facebook is getting less and less privacy as well. What should i do? MIA from all social networks? hahahaha!

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1st Day of September

Yesterday was Independence Day. Intended to blog but blog exceed bandwidth. *huhu* Anyway.. i did nothing during Independence Day.. was loitering at home.. pacing around at home.. playing with my keren and busy thinking name for the new bear bear..

ended up mummy called her miuky*

For me, theres nothing much to celebrate for Independence day… perhaps.. a good thing about 31st of August is a day of holiday for everyone. People get to hang out for the sake of gathering (not because of celebrating the day of course). People get to have a good rest because of the holiday… I guess, no one will really felt honored or overjoyed because 31st August is the day we were freed from colonization? At least i wont, i wont go and hang all those stupid flag around the house compound or even at the car… Today i heard my daddy telling me about theres a guy who waved the flag on the motorcycle *ppl will really  b that stupid to do those embarrassing stuff tho* and got hit by a car. Hmm. I just felt funny.

Want me to love my country more? Maybe they should stop bullshitting about democracy.

Yes. i m vain.

Left 368 FR. Gonna clear it off by tonight.

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These days..

I werent in a very good situation now. Kinda confused and.. i duno wad to do.. I lose my temper easily.. i don like this at all but things just werent seemed right.

Making a decision is hard. But having everyone to APPROVE your decision is even HARDER.

I thought i could figure out sometime good for myself. At least i knew it would be better for me.. if not now but later in the future. But concerns and misunderstandings just love to be around all these mess. Having people around you to approve your decision is harder than hoping around the moon. Because they might not understand the core intention of me having this decision.

Denial is always disappointed. Its hurt. Its sad. I m lost. At first i was happy because i finally found something that will make my life better.. true enough.. i remembered they mentioned last few months they will support my decision if i have made one. But shocked and disappointed enough, what i got is just a denial.

Well.. maybe they think i party too much recently. Well.. what can i say? i should say i have a lot of farewells and events recently. At least.. i din got myself into some dangerous situation right? FINE. Its useless to explain because all i got in the end is.. still something i understand but they thought i don understand. ARGH. Nevermind. They love me i know. i love them as well.. jus.. depressed. =)

I will still find a way and accomplished what i have to. Oh.. but at least.. i m 50% released as i jus took off a big rock on my shoulder. *kakaka*

And thats y i seldom blog recently.. not really in a calm mood to do things that i like. I just felt that i m not settled down yet. Have to do some research and think of a way to make my life better by not quarelling with the whole world. hoho!

Anyway… other than those nasty stuff.. i m alright..

I had oranges as my supper everyday because i can hardly sleep. thinking of how i should make my life fulfilling and meaningful. hahaha!

Annna, my chh is leaving kuching for a better future.. I m gonna miss her a lot a lot a lot.. somehow.. i felt really sad and down especially these few days. *Haih*  I’ll see u soon. very soon.

The “ARGH” dinner. It is always so happy and stress-free when ARG is with me. I love u girls real lot!

And after dinner.. we went to the Celcom X-Play event with annna. Its the moment of togetherness that counts.

oh.. and also.. the very cute BEARGENTINA! hahaha!

Well.. guess the only best moment for me now is the time i had ,munching this brinjal spaghetti. lying on the bed watching kang xi till i fall asleep. *muah*

p/s: papa is busy and not feeling well recently. Whoever that see this.. just wish him healthy at all times k. =)

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omg!

omg blog ah blog… i m so sorry i abandoned u… will come to u soon! *muah*

Oh.. btw.. i m in KK now.

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