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Sometimes its not always good to be positive all the time. Shits happened all the time, most of us will just try to ignore it and persuade ourselves to get back to the intended situation. It moves on for a lot of people, for a very long period of time.

But suddenly when you have too many things that disappoint you over time, and yet you still keep covering it by thinking it in a positive way.. i dont know about you. But sometimes i felt tired for just being too positive all the time..

How about accepting the fact and change everything? Everything as in like all the routine daily things, your lifestyle, your friends, the way you live.. Once you change it, it might not be able to come back to the previous. How many of you actually dare to take the challenge? Dare to let go of all commitments and all well-planned live of yours? Not many. I am one of the many many of you.

I dislike commitments. It holds me back. Not only  me, but almost every normal human beings in the world. I feel bad. Bad for being so unreasonably doing some mistakes. I feel confuse.. as in what should i do to fix things up. Just if time can be reversed.. okay. bullshit.

If there’s one day. In the future. or even in a very impossible way.. that we can travel around the world. Spending time in months, to stay with their culture, to experience all the different lifestyles in the world.. Put down everything to feel and appreciate the world.

Knowing a little bit more about the world and knowing a little bit less about myself.

Sometimes when you need friends the most, they are always busy. Giving petty reasons to reject you. Even if you have said out, some will just say i am busy. This is when you know who know you the best. You don have to say much. Just hint that you need a companion and she is all for you. Touched.

Thank You Debbie. *many love*

Tags: Daily Life

8.12.2010

Wasnt feeling well today. Well.. i think i am kinda feeling uneasy just now. Theres an eerie on my back.

Silly enough to have a nightmare even its like a half an hour nap. HUHUHU! Now… what should i do?

5.44am

I am like a dead zombie.. Slept at 3am last last night.. wake up at 1pm yesterday with a massive headache and stay awake until now..

Cook myself some boring breakfast took a bath.. going to pop in a panadol to cure my headache.. stop by 7/11 for a redbull and off to the appointment.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! i am going to sleep real easy after lunch. For now. tata! ^^

Tags: Daily Life

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when can i visit that w.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l place again?

Tags: Great Ocean Road, Melbourne

These days..

I werent in a very good situation now. Kinda confused and.. i duno wad to do.. I lose my temper easily.. i don like this at all but things just werent seemed right.

Making a decision is hard. But having everyone to APPROVE your decision is even HARDER.

I thought i could figure out sometime good for myself. At least i knew it would be better for me.. if not now but later in the future. But concerns and misunderstandings just love to be around all these mess. Having people around you to approve your decision is harder than hoping around the moon. Because they might not understand the core intention of me having this decision.

Denial is always disappointed. Its hurt. Its sad. I m lost. At first i was happy because i finally found something that will make my life better.. true enough.. i remembered they mentioned last few months they will support my decision if i have made one. But shocked and disappointed enough, what i got is just a denial.

Well.. maybe they think i party too much recently. Well.. what can i say? i should say i have a lot of farewells and events recently. At least.. i din got myself into some dangerous situation right? FINE. Its useless to explain because all i got in the end is.. still something i understand but they thought i don understand. ARGH. Nevermind. They love me i know. i love them as well.. jus.. depressed. =)

I will still find a way and accomplished what i have to. Oh.. but at least.. i m 50% released as i jus took off a big rock on my shoulder. *kakaka*

And thats y i seldom blog recently.. not really in a calm mood to do things that i like. I just felt that i m not settled down yet. Have to do some research and think of a way to make my life better by not quarelling with the whole world. hoho!

Anyway… other than those nasty stuff.. i m alright..

I had oranges as my supper everyday because i can hardly sleep. thinking of how i should make my life fulfilling and meaningful. hahaha!

Annna, my chh is leaving kuching for a better future.. I m gonna miss her a lot a lot a lot.. somehow.. i felt really sad and down especially these few days. *Haih*  I’ll see u soon. very soon.

The “ARGH” dinner. It is always so happy and stress-free when ARG is with me. I love u girls real lot!

And after dinner.. we went to the Celcom X-Play event with annna. Its the moment of togetherness that counts.

oh.. and also.. the very cute BEARGENTINA! hahaha!

Well.. guess the only best moment for me now is the time i had ,munching this brinjal spaghetti. lying on the bed watching kang xi till i fall asleep. *muah*

p/s: papa is busy and not feeling well recently. Whoever that see this.. just wish him healthy at all times k. =)

Tags: Daily Life