3rd Week

i think i start to love all of my students. Shits happened these two days.. At first everything is still alright.. but cmon.. which office don have politics right? Somehow.. 3rd week of my work.. i got somehow lectured by some seniors.. basically is saying that i m the cause of some A level students loitering around the old block and so on.. they said.. this kinda things never happened to them before.. only when i came in.. it kinda attract those students to keep going to the office and look for me. Okay fine. Another issue.. said that i should not talk to the A level student cause they are just about my age and some may have some intentions.. ok.. wadever.. another issue.. other seniors are complaining that a lot of their students came to office to look for me.. WTF? all i can say is.. all of these is beyond my control..oh or.. mayb i can just be cruel and ignore everyone. This is wad i was told to do.

The scary part is.. the A level issue.. actually it only happen 2 days ago coz they request me to sit in for their class.. but i cant.. and they start to just hang around the office and look for me.. and the thing is.. i got called to the office and ppl are lecturing me about this issue.. wad i mean is.. WOW.. things spread really fast.

I get kinda upset yesterday bcoz i duno wad to do.. i have ECA later till evening time when i saw 3 of my Yr10 students.. have a short chit chat with them..i m not sure if they realised i m upset or they r just all the time cheerful… they keep telling me jokes to cheer me up.. i feel relief after talking to them. i always love my Yr10 class because they are young adults already. Today.. i got the same shit from different senior as well.. basically the Alevel student issue. Ok fine. i will just bare with it.. and they say i m too kind with my students. Yes i admit. Perhaps.. everyone has their own way to deal with their students right. But sadly.. mayb mine dint pleased any of the seniors there. We talked through and i have to follow the “strict-guide” on students. This after when i m having class with my Yr8. I tell them honestly that i need them to be quiet and behave properly.. if not.. i will just have to take actions which i don wan to.. Ok.. skip the details.. most of the students in Yr8 they are surprisingly very protective. To tell you honestly actually i m really touched.. I never knew they are these protective towards me. They supported me and comfort me.. all of them. for your information.. Yr8 is the most rebelliious grade in the whole school. They are tough to handle. But i have to say that after i open up my heart and tell them honestly what is going on and how i wan them to behave.. they understand and they actually behave in order to get me out of the trouble. How sweet. I duno how to describe but its very obvious that they are protecting me. i used to have some headache with some of the guys in Yr8. but now.. they seems like they understand my situation. They behave well. Not more to say those who are close to me like Ngin Pern, Ezekiel, Yi Yang, Elvin, Aaron, Hee Sung, Anson, Brendan.. they are more like helping me to make sure everything is going smooth in the class. How sweet they are right…!

I feel relief after seeing how they actually react to my words.. and i feel touched somehow. i wanted to say, i love you guys too! =) Thank you for behaving in an appropriate manner in my class.

P.S: I  m just random so decided to say everything out as its still fresh in my mind. It happened not even 2 hours ago.. but i guess mayb some day later when i read back.. i might feel “why the hack i wrote this” and delete it. HAHA! never knows.

OKay… forget about everything and enjoy the farewell party for our Rooney later!

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Heart-Tearing

Today is suppose to be happy or more towards exciting.. because today is the day i started my new chapter of life.. i am working now.. yes.. my first day of work… time to experience the cruel reality of working. =)

BUT.. it turned out to be a heart-tearing day for me… 5pm.. i m happily packing my stuff to go home.. 5.30pm.. i reached home.. took a bath… load some videos to entertain myself after dinner… 6.15pm.. Daddy mummy came home… prepared dinner.. i had my dinner and i continue youtub-ing…

It was roughly 7pm when mummy’s phone rang.. my aunty called. she talk kinda loud and i heard “better don let ah yien know?” some kinda stuff.. i curiously go out from my room and mummy straight away tell me HE passed away.. I burst into tears. Broke Down.

HE is my babysitter.. to be exact.. a husband of my babysitter.. many ppl will be thinking.. wad so big deal about baby sitter.. a lot of ppl had a babysitter.. BUT mine is totally different.. When i was very young.. very very young i mean.. daddy mummy is working.. so they settle my brother and i to a very EVIL nursery where i think that baby sitter is a devil from HELL.. He locked my brother in the room because my brother don wan to eat porriage.. YEa.. and of coz.. i accompany my bro as well.. that makes us two little kids starving from morning til evening..

My cousins on the other way.. had a very good baby sitter.. BUT that babysitter and the family decided not to continue to babysit any babies after my cousin because they are kinda old already.. that time they are around 50 plus already.. but my aunty and my parents kinda hope she could take care of us as we really needed some good ppl… and she finally nodded.. She took good care of us until we love her so much.. She treated us like her own children.. of coz.. She is refering to the whole family lo.

Honestly speaking.. My brother and I had a very good childhood not only because of how our family raise us up but partially also because of my babysitter and her family. Thats y we still keep in contact for all these years.. Sorry to say that but the truth.. My brother and I are closer with my babysitter and her husband than with our own grandparents.. We ask ourselves a lot of times.. who is more important in our heart except our parents…? They are… THEY ARE. The answer always remain the same. None of my grandparents can overtake them.. WHY? Partially because we spent our childhood time 60% with our parents and 40% with Them..

They love us sincerely..they took care of us with their own heart.. i remember last time HE used to help my brother and I to use some thick steel to grab hold on ur drawing papers because it was too thick.. haih.. i know no one will understand except my brother. Just now.. i heard my aunty said my babysitter is a good person.. but the husband is a bit fierce and unfriendly. YOU ARE TOTALLY wrong. HE pampered us just like his own children. They said those harsh words because they do not even know him. DO they spent the whole day.. or probably a few years time with HIM? How could they said this as you don even understand him. I m angry.. but pointless… I m heart tearing that he left us alone.. leaving the world. Leaving his kind-hearted wife alone.

He passed away because of Malaria.. or Denggi.. Wadever! i know are those damn tiny creature.DEPRESSED.

In a positive way of thinking.. He had spent his 75 years in this world with our love.

You will always be in our heart.. The least.. it will forever remain in my heart and ah lun’s heart. Gong…Rest in Peace

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